New directons

Well, things seem to be moving in a new directon for me just lately.
The kids are all back at school now, and in another week, they will all be full time and i'll find myself out of a job i've been doing for 8 years!
Its going to be strange to put it lightly, not having at least one of them around and going back and forth to school 3 times a day... but i feel im more than ready to take on a new kind of challenge.
At first i was so confused as to what i wanted to do with my life and how i was going to achieve it, but having a little time and help to realise my options, things seem to be falling into place slowly but surely.
Now, i know that my destiny and future lies my hands and im the only one that can make things change and happen for the good of us all.
Now i know what i want, and i'm finding ways and means to go about doing these things.. i feel im on the up and finally have something to look forward to, instead of the same old routine we've been stuck in for so long.

I still cant help but feel slightly guilty about being so positive about things. If Mia hadn't died... then things would be so different and i wouldn't even be contemplating half of the idea's i am right now.
But i suppose in a way, im just looking at life differently now and things happen for a reason and so making the most of what you have got is the only way forward!
She would have been 6 months old in 2 days time....
Some days it feels like it only happened yesterday, and some days it seems like it was so far away, but i know I have her near me to guide me in the right directon now and I feel she is at peace within my own mind too, which i have only just began to realise.

So... onwards and upwards is how im going to be from now on.
No doubt i'll come across more boundries and obstacles to overcome.. but at least i have a little friend with me to help!!!!!!!!